Friday, March 25, 2016

Full Bloom

Hello, fancy running into you here. Don't think I've forgotten about you! I'm back with full force! I needed some time off to heal, as I've been encountering some personal issues. Now that things have calmed down, I am in a better state of mind to continue doing what makes me happy, something I have been neglecting for quite a bit. Firstly, happy spring to all of you! I hope that it has been much kinder to you than it has been to me. Things are finally beginning to look up, however! And I have many exciting things under way in the next couple of months, in addition to all that I had written about looking forward to in my New Years post!

Although not particularly warm, San Francisco has greeted us with some sunlight (and the occasional thunder storm), so I have been able to venture out into the open air without a coat, something I haven't been able to do really since last summer. But as my fellow San Franciscans know, layers are a must, no matter what the forecast. The weather always has a funny way of changing direction when you least suspect it to.

This has, however, convinced me to think outside the box, clothing-wise! I'm starting to accept and understand that I don't have one exact style and can't be categorised into one main archetype, there are many trends and styles that interest me, which means I can blend in with many groups--and that's perfectly okay. For a while, I have always thought I had to identify with one set style and that would be who I presented myself as, when in reality, I can dress like a pinup straight out of the 1950s one day, and wear a flannel, black jeans, and Doc Martens the next, and still feel that I am showcasing my personality. The people who know me best are those who have seen every side of me, not just one, which led to them forming an opinion of the type of person I am. What a strange notion that we can decide who someone is based off of the one outfit we see them in. There are two sides to this, as our judgement can be both powerful and seemingly useless. There is no way to completely understand who a person is based off of their clothing, especially if that judgement is negative. However, presenting yourself in a way that you know will reflect well to others (i.e. a job interview, audition, first date, etc.) can put the power in your own hands. Not really a point to this, just more food for thought, and something I've been thinking about lately.

The power of archetypes and labels is indisputable, whether we disagree with it or not. Have you ever wondered how your friends would describe you to someone who doesn't know you? This is often a question I ask people who know me in varying degrees, from a romantic partner to an acquaintance, just out of curiosity. All of this being said, what are your perceptions of who I am solely based off of my outfit posts? Let me know in the comments! I would really like to know how I present myself to others.

I wish you nothing but the best this spring! What are your opinions on labelling? Are the judgements made by others on you usually right or wholly inaccurate, and how does that make you feel? Do let me know in the comments, and let's start a discussion!

Stay sweet ♡ 

P.S. Thank you to all of you who have been there for me unconditionally over the course of the past few months (you know who you are). It means the absolute world to me!

blouse: vintage | mum jeans: vintage | brogues: dr. martens | belt: from another dress | glasses: forever 21 (similar) | satchel: modcloth

*photos by Roman

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

In the Sun

It's been 40º weather here in San Francisco, as of late, so I can easily say I've been thinking about warm days back in Hawaii as of late, despite not being the biggest beach bum. Around Christmas time, my goooorgeous friend Shannon (who is actually a mermaid; @mermaidshannon on Instagram if you need proof!) and I hit the sand for a little impromptu photoshoot. This is where my mind will be until my final term starts...

To be fair, I haven't spent much time outside at all since I've been home, and the cold isn't entirely to blame. I've been spending most of my winter holiday time alone, in my house, eating lentils and rice, binge watching whatever shows I can think of on Netflix, Hulu, and YouTube. Normally, I would absolutely hate the solidarity, but I find myself really missing and looking forward to being alone when I actually do spend time with other people--and if you know me at all, that is really, really peculiar and new for me. The time alone has given me the opportunity to write more, to make more art, and to think more (which is usually a bad thing, but not lately). The days are winding down until I am out of the house 5 days a week once more, without the spare time for these activities. Hopefully I continue writing in my journal and making art as often as I can, because it's been truly liberating.

swimsuit: American Apparel

Now, my question for you is what do you do by yourself that keeps you busy and/or makes you happy? I am trying to find new activities to try (preferably that don't spend any money) in order to become more comfortable being alone. I think it's an important thing for everyone!

Stay sweet♡ 

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Peachy Keen

When visiting my family in Hawaii, I tend to pack very minimal clothing--unlike me travelling anywhere else. There weren't many looks worth sharing this last trip, aside from this little number I threw together. I've had these two pieces for quite a while now, but only just realised they go together rather well. While this pleases my perfectionist little brain, I have had this strange desire to take a step back from my perfect matching and try and wear colours I normally wouldn't together, and mix patterns and all of that. Perhaps when I'm brave enough to try it or am satisfied with a result, I will share it on here with you. This does bring up a topic that has been on my mind for quite a while, however...

I've always had an interest in fashion, but over the past year, I've noticed it's fizzled away a bit, and I've been more focused on personal style than what's popular in the bigger fashion world. I think this is most likely due to the whole "hipster/don't like what's popular because that's lame" mentality that was abundant throughout my impressionable high school years. I'll admit, I was one, for a while, to think trends are lame and people should march to the beat of their own drum, and not worry about what's "in". In a sense, I do still feel that way, but at some point, I gained a profound respect for the fashion industry and what people far more experienced and knowledgeable had to say when it comes to how to dress--most likely due to binge watching Project Runway and America's Top Model, and reading fashion blogs. This, as well as seeing the film Super 8, prompted me to start my very first fashion-related blog, dedicated to the stylish and youthful Elle Fanning. Back then, I knew everything about the latest runway shows, and could tell who designed what by just a glance at the detailing. So what happened? Maybe it was attending art school, and becoming ever disgusted at the way I observed some fashion students treat others, or maybe it was becoming so consumed in my acting work that fashion took the back seat. Whatever it was, I somehow lost myself in an efforts to stay true to myself. No, I don't think in order to be stylish, you have to be able to know the top 10 designers currently in the industry, or even have any interest in what's on the runways at all--because let's be honest, not all of us can afford that, why bother torturing ourselves by looking? My aim in discussing this is more to emphasise that I had once had a true passion for something, that none of my friends or family really cared about, that wasn't taught to me in school, but that I discovered on my own, much like the career I've chosen to pursue. So recognising that I had at some point lost that passion, really was pretty upsetting. Thankfully, through some recent activities (let's face it... it's more Top Model binging), I've found that passion again, and can't wait to experiment and be inspired the way I used to be. It may very well be that my sort of "loss of self" feeling I've been writing about lately could have very much been due to that loss of fervour.

Long story short, I'm back to loving not just clothes and personal style, but fashion as a whole once again, which will hopefully bring back that drive I've been craving to have once again when it comes to blogging. Don't worry--you'll still be getting 100% me, just a more inspired version of myself.

Now that that's out of the way, let's return to this sunny and bright day, shall we?

One of the best parts of going home for the holidays, as always, is seeing my best friend in the world, Kitty! We are going on year 8 of our friendship, and despite only being able to see her one or two days a year, she is, and always has been, and always will be, the closest person in my life. We always know how to have a marvellous few hours together, with our typical routine of Italian food for lunch, shopping, and lots (and I mean lots) of selfies. This time around, we even through a joint hair appointment into the mix (as if it couldn't get any *~girlier). I love every single second I spend with this girl, and I cannot wait to travel on over to her side of the globe after we both graduate university this spring. See you soon, my love!

If I haven't lost you through all of that chatter, I am quite impressed! How goes your 2016 so far? I hope it's as wonderful as mine has been. Although I've enjoyed some time alone, I can't wait for my darling Jessie to return to me! How do you survive breaks from school? My winter break is always excruciatingly long (around 5-6 weeks), and I have been keeping busy, but I don't know how many more activities I'll be able to find before I lose it! Anyway. Until next time!

Stay sweet 

top: vintage tommy bahama | skirt: forever 21 | belt: vintage | sandals: old old navy

Friday, January 1, 2016

So This is the New Year

Happy New Years, to all! 2015 was a remarkably profound year in my life. I managed to experience so much in so little time, and I have all of the incredible people in my life to thank for that! 2015 was one of the best years I've had in a long time, with its fair share of emotional hardships along the way, but overall, I wouldn't change a thing, because I've grown more as a person in this past year than I have any other year in my life, it feels.

(For your listening pleasure, please listen to the song stuck in my head all day yesterday as you read):

Here are just a few positive things that happened in 2015...
  • was a part of two uni productions, one as a major role
  • moved into my first home (with someone I can now call my best friend/sister for life)
  • concerts! fleetwood mac, marina & the diamonds (twice!), death cab for cutie, nate ruess...
  • experienced ~love~ in its many forms
  • got straight A's at uni
  • freed myself from unhealthy relationships
  • become obsessed with reading for pleasure again
  • turned 21!!
  • featured in my first mag (see my blog post here)
  • began painting and making art again
  • did things out of my comfort zone
  • dyed my hair 6 different colours
  • found my drive and passion in many things once more
  • finished my Invisalign
  • many, many lovely photo and film shoots with talented artists
  • reinvented The Petite Pixie (lots in store!)
And the things to come in 2016...
  • opening up my depop (keep checking back after today!) 
  • graduating uni with my second degree!!!
  • travelling abroad by myself to visit Kitty!
  • Rocky Horror Show!
  • grandparents' 70th wedding anniversary!
  • my brother's wedding!
And hopefully lots more unexpected pleasures!

Happy 2016, everyone! I hope you had a safe, positive, and love-filled year. What did you accomplish this year, and what do you hope to accomplish with this coming year? What were some of your favourite things in 2015? Please let me know in the comments, and let's discuss!

Stay sweet  

dress: A Clothes Horse closet sale (now closed) | belt: forever 21 | earrings: vintage

Monday, December 28, 2015

Christmas Cheer

**for some reason I scheduled this to post on Christmas day and it didn't! Apologies for my lateness

Happy (belated) Christmas, everyone! Christmas is my absolute favourite time of year, and I definitely make sure to go all out. This year, I was fortunate enough to have my own house to throw my first ever Christmas party with alongside my roommate/bestie Jessie! There were jams, laughs, gifts, and lots and lots of photos. Overall, I'd call it a success! It was an "ugly sweater/jumper" theme, so obviously I had a lot of fun making my own (despite Jessie claiming it's not ugly at all.... I digress). I love hosting in my new home and can't wait for more reasons to celebrate in 2016*~

Meanwhile, I'm back with my family in Hawaii for Christmas this year (the first time in 3 years!) and it's been so nice to have a teeny break from the cold back at home, but I still can't wait to be back in my little pink-carpeted house and back to real life!

In other news, how absolutely darling and perfect is this little drawing of me by super gifted artist/all-around sweetheart Lisa Lumos (@LisaLumos on Instagram, people!!)?? I adore being drawn so this was quite the wonderful little Christmas surprise!

For those of you that celebrate Christmas, have a happy and safe day, and for those of you who don't, I wish the same, as well as a lovely holiday season. Do any of you have some fun Christmas/any holiday traditions that you'd like to share? I'm always curious about what other people do on this day every year. Do let me know!

Stay sweet (with lots of Christmas goodies!) 

jumper: vintage + handmade skirt: h&m | heels: i honestly don't remember, sorry!

*Photos by Jessie 

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Pixie Dust

It seems like lately I've been escaping my bubble gum pastel faerie aesthetic for a more """mature""" (boring) palette, but that doesn't mean I don't incorporate it every once in a while. Perhaps by "incorporating it every once in a while" I really mean going all out with an entire ensemble dedicated to the pale hues. The all pink look used to be my "thing", but for some reason I just have been avoiding it. Could be the cold weather, or maybe I'm just bored of being predictable. In any case, this outfit I whipped up last minute one morning really put me in pixie-esque spirits.

As much as I would love an entire closet dedicated to candy-coloured goodness like the ever so perfect Kailey of Mermaidens (who executes it flawlessly without ever being expected or dull--a talent I must acquire myself!), I find my taste ever so fleeting, or, moreso that what I wear is entirely dependent on my mood, which ranges quite dramatically as of late. When I'm in a particularly empowering (and dare I say b*tchy) mood, I tend to go for the tight, all black look (like seen here), when I'm feeling sophisticated, I go all out vintage, (complete with vintage lingerie underneath!), and when I'm just tired and done with the world, I even wear... *gasp* jeans! I suppose this pastel pixie look must be my default for an average day. Can't complain too much about such a cute signature look, despite being season-appropriate or not!

Do you have a signature, go-to style each day, or do you dress depending on your mood as well? Also, does your outfit tend to set the mood for your day, as I have noticed does so for mine? Do let me know, it is something I wonder about often. Perhaps I am just a crazy woman who is the only one who thinks this way. Who knows!

Stay sweet 

dress: american apparel | jacket: banana republic | crop tank: topshop | skirt (worn as petticoat): target | socks & necklace: h&m | shoes: bait footwear

*Photos by James

Sunday, December 20, 2015


Hello, dolls! Long time, no see (yet again, deepest apologies). You may have noticed quite a few changes in the blog's appearance that have been slowly taking shape over the last month (there is still quite a bit to accomplish). If you've been frequently visiting despite the lack of updates, you'll have noticed that my blog's theme has now successfully changed completely twice. That is due to my overall indecisiveness over aesthetics as well as self-exploration as well as my ever-wavering understanding of self and what I want, not only out of this blog, but out of life in general. It proves to be quite the challenge, but I am sure with some time dedicated to myself and much reflection and deep thought, I will come to some sort of conclusion eventually. I also need to accept the fact that I am quite young and have much to learn and experience before I can ever truly know what I want out of life. Some people never know. But perhaps, I am just rambling now.

Here are some key things that I have been up to over the last few months:
  • I've been cast in and have completed the production of Bus Stop, which proved to be quite the draining yet wonderful experience
  • I've successfully lost 5 pounds and gained it back in a matter of weeks 
  • I've gone through my closet and sorted out several garbage bags of clothing to get rid of
  • I became addicted to Jane the Virgin and old cycles of America's Next Top Model 
  • I've been painting a lot
  • I dyed my hair very dark brown for Bus Stop then back to copper again (quite the process)
  • I've been newly single for the longest time since I started university
  • I spent lots of time with family when they were in California
  • I pierced my daith
  • I got a rose gold iPhone 6S
  • I've started a new medication 
  • I auditioned for and was cast in the Spring musical, my last ever production in university
  • Finished my last fall semester of university
That seems to be the length of it. I guess overall, it comes together as a rather productive list, despite at the time feeling massively unproductive.

Here is an outfit that I wore this past fall that really sparked my sense of "feeling like myself" again after a long period of feeling like I was losing myself, style-wise. I don't know what it was exactly. Perhaps too much comparing myself to people on Instagram, but I found myself wearing lots of black and denim and looking "trendy" but not myself, which, I think, led to this whole feeling of losing myself. I wore this outfit and, after being complimented by dozens of strangers everywhere I went, I was reminded why I dress the way that I do. It gave me a confidence boost and I felt like I was being complimented for being myself rather than being the way everyone wanted to look.

Anyway, the year is finally coming to a close, and I can't wait to see what 2016 brings myself as well as all of you. I've been really itching to write more, and I can't wait to continue to share my life and personal style with you.

Stay sweet 

blouse: thrifted | skirt: thrifted | socks: from a shop in japan | shoes: thrifted | beret: from a shop in paris | satchel: (old) cambridge satchel co. via modcloth

*photos by James

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