It is now week 5 of school, the semester is ⅓ of the way through, and it is just now hitting me how important and okay it is to take time for yourself. While going on adventures every day and having someone to spend the day with seems ideal and being alone can seem terrifying, taking a step back to breathe and focus only on yourself and your needs can be incredibly rewarding. It hit me that I've been stuck, not entirely sure for how long. I've been putting my health, career, and personal hobbies (such as this blog) on the back burner to avoid "missing out", when, in reality, I am missing out on prime time for personal growth, understanding, and reflection by jumping at every opportunity to refrain from being alone.
I don't regret a single thing that I've done up until this point. In 2015 up to this point I have found love and a best friend, done things that would normally leave me incredibly anxious, seen more of my beautiful city (seriously look at those photos), learnt that missing something or someone doesn't mean that you have to hold on, etc. I've accepted the fact that while I've enjoyed myself up until this point, it is okay to explore a completely different way of living to see what I can truly become. The only way I know how to describe this metaphorically is through a book. While one chapter may be lovely and you have no idea what the next chapter may hold or how it will shift the story, you still want to keep reading.
You may be wondering why I am writing all of this. Perhaps it is to reassure myself that what I am doing is completely acceptable. Maybe one of you reading this is going through a point in your life where you also feel stuck and afraid to take a plunge because of how it might affect others. If that's the case, just know that sometimes in life (especially in your young life), it is okay to be selfish and look after only your best interest. In my opinion, the ability to do that while still having compassion for others is very noble. I hope I am on that right course.
My advice to all of you reading is to remember to take time for yourself, even if it's just a day where you stay in your room doing what you love, listening to your favourite music (what I'm doing today). Don't completely cut yourself off of those who make you happy, however, because sometimes "me time" can mean letting someone you love know how much they mean to you. Whatever you do, remember only you are the most important person in your life, and that you deserve to be taken care of every once in a while.
Stay sweet ♡